Trust Attack

So...sometimes I let the objects of my thoughts get the best of me, which is exactly why I am reading "The Untethered Soul." I have the loveliest boyfriend and we spend a lot of time apart because I travel for work. One night I was having a "Trust Attack" and I wrote this poem. I completely trust him, there has never been a fear of unfaithfulness. This came from my own personal fear of not being the right woman for him, and the fear that another woman in this life was the right one. This fear turned out to be completely unfounded, but at the time that I was feeling this, I was convinced that it was truth.


Trust Attack

I trust you,

But I’m nervous that she makes you laugh everyday.

I trust you,

But I’m worried when she inspires you to play.

I trust you,

But I’m anxious that I’m too reflective for you.

I trust you,

But I’m edgy that her selflessness comes through.

I trust you,

But I’m bothered when you giggle and drink wine.

I trust you,

But I’m troubled that her talent surpasses mine.

I trust you,

But I’m jealous that she’s nurturing you now.

I trust you,

But I’m fretful that she always takes the final bow.

I trust you,

But I’m fearful you wanted her, the way you have me.

I trust you,

But I’m strung out that she’s so much more than beauty.

I trust you,

But I’m concerned she has the best of me and more.

I trust you,

But I’m confused then, as to what you need me for.

I trust you,

But I’m distressed, I’m here because I loved you back.

I love you,

But I’d rather leave than have this trust attack.