"Gotta Do It" lyrics by Jess Coffman

After writing that last blog post about feeling as though I was never "enough" in my early twenties. It made me remember this song that I wrote in Toronto, right after I left LA in 2011. I had fallen for this guy fast, but I wasn't pure enough, wasn't sweet enough and wasn't understanding enough for his sensitive ass, and we broke up days before I left LA. Though it was all for the better. He gave me the inspiration for these lyrics which helped me get over him, and I have never looked back. 

Gotta Do It

Gotta grow up,

Gotta shut up,

I can’t keeping complaining like this

I had feelings for you baby,

But they’re dying in your emply kiss.

I've gotta a lot of livin to do, that won’t include you,

I gotta keep movin along,

So this is my song for now.

                  I’ve spent all my time chasing you around,

                  I’ve spent all my time breaking myself down.

                  I can't get back those hours, with my guts on the floor.

                  I gotta  just pick up my frown, spin right around

                  And dance through the door.

Never open,

Never hopin’

For love with just any man that I meet.

But you promised to me baby, you'd never leave my heart at my feet.

But you broke both instead, and left me for dead

You said you had to move right along,

So this is my song for now.

                   I’ve spent all my time chasing you around,

                  I’ve spent all my time breaking myself down.

                  I can't get back those hours, with my guts on the floor.

                  I gotta  just pick up my frown, spin right around

                  And dance through the door.

Never knowin,

Always goin'

Through life throwing caution to the wind

But I’ve learned from you baby, with love I'll be more disciplined

I won't find I need by the end of this cigarette,

I have to just trust that love is a worthwhile bet

And take what I can get for now,

                  I’ve spent all my time chasing you around,

                  I’ve spent all my time breaking myself down.

                  I can't get back those hours, with my guts on the floor.

                  I gotta  just pick up my frown, spin right around

                  And dance through the door.

                                    I'll never let a lover change my tune

                                    Never let him tell me who I ought to be.

                                    I just need someone with flexibility, energy,

                                    Who'll love me unconditionally.

                                    I won't be sad anymore, won't be mad anymore

                                    And trust that I'm enough

                                    To make me and somebody happy forevermore,

                 

                  Cause I’ve spent all my time chasing you around,

                  I’ve spent all my time breaking myself down.

                  I can't get back those hours, with my guts on the floor.

                  I gotta  just pick up my frown, spin right around

                  And dance through the door.

                  …I'm dancin right through that open door.

 This awesome quote is on the dressing room wall of the 100 Club in London. I took this photo while I was on tour with the Satin Dollz and Jive Aces in 2010. I thought it properly accompanied these lyrics.