"When I Was Your Jess," lyrics by Jess Coffman

Toes in the sand,
Mist like a kiss.
The waves in my heart break,
Cause I miss your lips.

I see that smile,
It's seared in my mind.
I can't erase it,
With beauty or wine.

There was a season,
When you were all mine.
When we were sweet,
and green and blind.
But one day the wind blew,
The Truth in my ear,
And I couldn't un-know it,
And I couldn't un-hear it.

I couldn't have you, not anymore.
Somehow I'd leave you,
Somehow the door was closing.
I didn't know then,
It would be for the best.
I always thought that,
I'd be your Jess.

Each moment feels borrowed,
You feel wrong to the touch,
Why can't you belong to me?
When I love you so much.

Even in our own pictures,
Your face seems to fade.
And I am left alone standing,
Without any say.

There was a season,
When you were all mine.
Then God changed the discourse,
And I had to find him.
One day the wind blew,
The Truth in my ear,
And I couldn't un-know it,
And I couldn't un-hear it.

I couldn't have you, not anymore.
Somehow I'd leave you,
She'd be the door you'd open.
Although I know,
It's all for the best,
I miss your voice whispering,
That I was your Jess.

And she will inspire you,
And you will grow up.
You will adore her,
And you'll be enough.
And I'll still be chasing,
The Truth on the wind,
I'll never give up,
I'll just keep giving in,
I'll just keep listening.

I shouldn't have you, not anymore.
God helped me leave you,
He was the door I'd open.
Although I know,
It was all for the best.
I'll always love when I was your Jess.

I'll always love when, I was your Jess.

JESS COFFMAN

I wrote this song today at the beach, while I was reminiscing about a long ago love. I had such a beautiful day by myself. The beach is such a perfect place because it ignites all of the senses. 

Somehow, minding my own business, I found myself chatting with a very gregarious Italian, who happened to be a Professional Surfer/Windsurfer...that song is to come :) 

Peace, Waves, and Italians,

Your Jess