"Only For You," lyrics by Jess Coffman

I hide a little love away,
In a secret place,
That's only for you,
Only for you.

I could love another face,
But it's just not the same,
It's saved only for you.
Only for you.

I could feel love for him now,
But it won't make me love you any less,
There's no chance my love's running out.
I grow more each day,
And I hide some away,
Only for you.

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He could make me cry with laughter,
Then leave my heart the moment after.
He was my first and only everything.

He could break me with a letter,
He always hoped for something better.
And I was never something better, to him.

And so I left, with the choice to find my breath
That was knocked right out of me,
That leads to life, and leads to you eventually.

I hide a little love away
In a secret place,
That's only for you.
Only for you.

I could love another face,
But it's just not the same,
It's saved only for you.
Only for you.

He may get soft kisses now,
It won't make me kiss you any less.
Traces of love, that I've given out.
They'll lead me to the day,
When I'll choose to stay,
Only for you.

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He was sweet, the sweetest peach, but 

There was much that I had to teach, cause 

I was his first and only everything. 

I was sure I was to marry,

This patient man so bright and merry,

Until the day I couldn't carry both of us. 

So I left, with the push from his breath,

That was knocked right out of him,

That lead me to God, and leads to you eventually. 

I hide a little love away,
In a secret place,
That's only for you,
Only for you.

I could love another face,
But it's just not the same,
It's saved only for you.
Only for you. 

I could feel love for him now,
But it won't make me love you any less,
There's no chance my love's running out.
I grow more each day,
And I hide some away,
Only for you.

I could feel love for him now,
But I know it won't be a love to last,
Deep in my heart, I'm holding out,
I can't wait for the day,
When I'll give it all away,
Only for you.

It's not like I start out knowin'
And I don't break heart's for the fun of it.
But as soon as I know he's not the one,
I start getting over it.
And I've nothing to show for it.

I hide a little love away,
In a secret place,
That's only for you.
Only for you.

I could love another face,
But it's just not the same,
It's saved only for you.
Only for you.

I hide a little love away,
In a secret place,
That's only for you.
Only for you.

I could love another face,
But it's just not the same,
It's saved only for you.
Only for you.
Only for you.

JESS COFFMAN

"Only For You," has a very contemporary and worldly theme. I don't know that it is entirely ethical either, or if not unethical, than potentially not romantic. The song is written from the perspective of a woman singing to her future husband. The intention of the lyrics are certainly not as pure and loyal as they could potentially come across. Within the song, the future wife admits the reality of essentially not saving herself fully for her future husband, while being in loving relationships with other men. She does however have the awareness and desire to "hide a little love away" not fully giving of herself either, to the men that precede her husband. I think the woman is trying to reconcile to herself and her future husband, the fact that she has not "saved" herself for him.  And this goes far behind being concerned about not being sexually pure. She is essentially calling herself out, and reassuring her future husband that, there is still an endless amount of discovery to be had. There will be new adventures to explore, new inside jokes, new memories to be made among the memories that exist and will never fully be erased with the men of her past. There will also be a newfound trust, independence, assurance and a giving over emotionally to the man who eventually becomes her husband. Though it is ideal and a reality for some people to save themselves entirely for their future mate, for most in these current times, it's not a choice that people often choose. I've had to reconcile my own feelings in this matter, by coming to the realization that every relationship that I have had up to this point, has caused me to be more patient, more honest and more responsible for myself. This is precisely why I don't regret the significant relationships I've had in my life. They only have lead me closer and help me fine tune what I really want in a man, and the kind of wife I eventually want to be. There are plenty of unfortunate decisions I made with my heart in my youth, but I am happy to be on the other side of that at this point.

This is dedicated to the men, I've loved who will never become my husband.

This piece is called "Head of a Sleeping Woman," painted by my favorite artist Pablo Picasso. One day I hope to be loved by a man so much, that just the sight of me sleeping, inspires him to create. 

Peace, love and hope,

Your Jess