Poetry of Peacocks: "So I Run," lyrics by Jess Coffman

The news shattered me like a vase,
Full of vibrant flowers,
Being dropped on the floor.
One hand on my face,
One hand on my heart for hours,
Tears inside began to pour.

I never thought I'd react this way.
I knew this news would happen one day.

I stumbled around like a soul
Who was blinded by truth,
And I couldn't see straight.
I reached in my past,
To pull back from love, from you,
To alter this fate.

I never thought I'd react this way.
I knew this news would happen one day,
But I'm wide-eyed and broken...

So I run, run fast,
Just as fast as I can.
Right into the arms of another man.
And when he is gone there is only shame,
He was the scapegoat I could blame,
Cause I couldn't claim you...anymore.
Oh...

These feelings inside, came to life,
Like a zombie raising,
Right up from the dead.
They clawed to my heart,
They broke through my peace, dazing
All resolve in my head.

I never thought I'd react this way.
I knew this news would happen one day,
But I'm wide-eyed and broken...

So I run, run fast,
Just as fast as I can.
Right into the arms of another man.
And when he was gone there was only shame,
He was the scapegoat I could blame,
Cause I couldn't claim you.
No, Oh...

I know I don't need you,
So why do I miss you,
Like I miss being a child?
And I'll never go back,
Back to the sea,
With the wind at my feet
And my hair blowin' wild.
So I'll never regret cause
It's useless and wrong.
You've led me right where I truly belong.
Though I'm shaken, I'm tough,
And you never were tough,
And I can do better.

So I'll run, run fast.
Just as fast as I can.
Out of the arms of another man.
And when I am gone, there won't be shame.
Won't be any mess to erase or blame.
And I'll stop claiming you,
Cause there's nothing to claim,
Anymore.

JESS COFFMAN